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Saturday, November 25, 2006

Rather than remain quiet and unknown for fifty years
Why not stun Heaven and Earth for just three seconds?

For just those three seconds of your life, you'll truly feel that all that life that you have lived before that suddenly is worth the wait.

And then, you'll want to stun the world again.

Moving is the life that knows how to create moment after dramatic moment.

I want to move the world.
Care to join the ride?

gambitch [ 9:39 PM]

Thursday, November 23, 2006

Yeah, I was pretty upset, you can say that.

Being politely asked to go home first was okay - the event itself was over, the mingling was mostly done, and most of the guests had left before me. I understood, so that was fine.

What you didn't know was what happened on my way out. Being lost and stuck wasn't exactly fun, but the fortunate thing was that it was one good group of us, so we eventually figured our way out thanks to the security guard being absolutely helpful. But I came out expecting to meet up with the car, except there was no car.

That got me upset. I felt abandoned. Forgotten. As if I was never there.

That was worse than you not really noticing my hair. But I suppose you were too busy, so that's fine.

I felt good seeing you being busy. I felt good being busy myself. Helps me forget my own little troubles.

I had half-cried over that a couple of nights before. Half, because the tears weren't really flowing like a river. My eyes were a little wet, but I couldn't really cry.

But you didn't know. Because I didn't tell you. Never had the chance to.

And everywhere, people were asking how come I wasn't in the race. I brushed it off saying it was a technicality. But the more often I had to answer the question, the harder it felt for me to utter that word.

So you have no idea how delighted I was when I heard from your boss that the technicality might be lifted next year.

I really cross my fingers on that.

But that's not so important.

I got cast aside. Abandoned. Forgotten.

And for at least a few minutes, I felt sick.

I should have been celebrating with others. Just so I could run away from the real me, the me that was breaking up inside over a million things.

Instead, I had to watch myself break up.

Tough...

Never mind, though. I'll just go to sleep and forget it the next evening.

Or will I wake up remembering?

gambitch [ 5:45 AM]

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

I'm about to do something I don't normally do.

I'm about to do my hair.

Y'know, colour it and stuff.

I don't normally do it, because I've heard all the terrible things about hair dye affecting your liver and things like that. And more importantly, because I don't want to be like most of those normal boorish guys colouring their hair a crude shade of attention-grabbing gold. I've been to hair salons a bit in the last year or so, and everybody's suggesting I dye my hair. Sure, there's business involved - colouring hair isn't done for free - but apart from that, I've never quite taken to the idea anyway.

If ever I was going to do it, it had to be a very different and unusual occasion. And it had to have maximum impact in terms of the surprise factor. If I was gonna do it, I'd better make it a really stunning thing. That's the way I thought.

But normally I don't do it. Hey, despite the whole trend about colouring and highlighting hair, someone I know has kept her hair black after growing out of the trend some years back. Now black hair looks perfectly nice - although someone else disagrees. So why should I follow the trend?

So, then, why am I doing my hair this time?

Because, one, it's a special event, and this is totally one-off. Two, I want to show that I have the capacity to surprise. Three, well... I want to see who notices.

Hence, not too many tricks this time. I originally thought I'd go really wild and colour my hair turquoise. To go with my turquoise shirt and turquoise tie. I know that makes me look like some sort of anime character - minus the cuteness, of course - but the whole point was to grab attention for doing the absolutely outlandish. This after a year when everybody says I dress damn safe with worn-out polo-tees and jeans.

So I happily went to look around, only to realize... there's no turquoise hair colour. The closest they had was pure blue and pure grassy green. I'd have to mix the two to get turquoise. And there's another problem - both are such extreme colours that in order to get the colour onto your hair right, you'd have to bleach your hair to death. Which ruins the quality of your hair. Every salon person I've spoken with tells me the same thing about that: "Not worth it."

So, okay, looks like turquoise is out. Bummer. But I still want to be different for a change. So maybe just sorta highlight the front a bit? That might work, especially since I've been keeping my hair on the long side. Not all that common, if you look at the usual hairstyle I tended to sport in the past. It's all about low maintenance for me most of the time, and considering the weather here, that's generally a sane idea.

I've got no idea whether the highlighting and all that will work out nicely enough. It's meant to be something fun. I just hope everything turns out fine, and maybe one or two people might notice. That'd be pretty cool.

gambitch [ 1:42 PM]