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Friday, September 22, 2006

Teppei Katagiri and Riko Uesugi.

That Tiffany's apple.

Hello Kitty.

It can only be...

gambitch [ 11:56 PM]

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

It was a matter of time.

A matter of time before
you started wondering
just why this was going on.
Why I did what I did
which was so out of character
so unusual
so strange.

The busy bumblebee
suddenly reducing himself
to a mere passenger,
doing the things
his job never required
when his job
required him to do
nothing.

You asked once
but you didn't ask much.
And I gave my answer.
Which was true.
But you did not ask much
and I said no more
than what you had asked.

But now you ask again.
This time, more.
This time, deeper.
Finally
giving me your real read.
You ask
and again I answer.
But how much did I tell?
I don't really know...

There are some things
that I don't have to say.
You're too smart
not to get it.
For you know me well
and that is the way
I meant it to be.

For you to know me well
and understand when you see
even one eyebrow move.
I ask not that I can do the same
at least not to perfection
not yet anyway.

I know my heart is not yet pure.
I want to make it pure and true.
I know I get my dance steps wrong.
So teach me what you want me to do.

Maybe there is a place
you want me to belong
that is not the place
where I seem to be.
My hand is here
for you to lead
so lead me
the way
you always do.

gambitch [ 2:43 AM]

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

I know I told you earlier that we're all wasting our lives, every second of it.

Thinking back, that's not what I really meant to say.

It's all about definitions, at the end of it. Is wasting our own lives such a bad thing? It all depends on how we see it.

These past two weeks have been, I admit, different. I wasn't doing the usual kind of work I was doing. In fact, if anything, I was probably one of the least productive people of my official profession. Realistically, I had no real work to do.

And to be honest, I never minded that.

What's there to mind, when the point of the entire exercise was to do something different, something which I had not ventured into before?

What's there to mind, when it was about process, not product, even if I had no real product to show at the end of the day?

What's there to mind, when even as I spent every night up there, even if I may have fallen asleep mentally, I was enjoying every minute of it?

What's there to mind, when I gained new acquaintances, learnt new things about operations I never knew about before, and renewed faith in my beliefs that I now knew I did not possess alone?

What's there to mind, when every second, by doing what I wanted to do, I felt alive?

What's there to mind, really?

I liked it, and given a choice, I would do it again and again.

Only next time, I'd do some real work on the side along the way as well.

I don't care that the order does not seem 'correct'. I only care that everything worked out all fine.

And seeing that it did, you see, was all that mattered to me. Knowing the night went well was all that meant anything at all.

Maybe it all seems silly.

But must anything be wrong with being silly?

gambitch [ 7:46 PM]

Monday, September 18, 2006

I'm fighting to get back into the old routine, after two weeks where I was doing something else.

And there's nothing like taking a string of jobs and coming back out as the big hitter.

This was, of course, after a morning where I got involved in doing something I wasn't originally meaning to do. And then a morning tea session that was longer than expected, all because the rain stopped us from leaving the place anyway.

Then it was back to work, and more work, and now, still more work to come later.

It wasn't that easy making the adjustment back, especially when the previous two weeks have been a sweet and different experience. But that's the whole point of me suddenly hitting big again, because I wanted to jolt myself back into the routine as quickly as possible.

It's time to hit the highs again.

gambitch [ 11:55 PM]

Sunday, September 17, 2006

One last big show. This should be good!

The only problem is that I've got unfinished work to do as well. But I shall push on!

gambitch [ 2:42 PM]